I am home alone and the house smells. Our sewage has backed up in the basement, basically allowing the Ratsnest to live up to its name. We have ants and the house stinks, this place sucks. We have to move out in two weeks and it is very scary. I am not really sure where everything is going these days, but I am sure that it will not work out hte way I want it to. Where will I keep all my stuff, should I get rid of all my stuff? I want my bed and desk, but outside of that I dont need anything really. Maybe I should start packing? I am going to California soon, but we have no place to stay. Life is up in the air, and I hate it. I want, and all day I want more, want different things. I want to write more but now I am thinking too much, will I live with Marty, or Adam. Will my bills get paid on time, will I be happy, will I have sex. It is very frustrating not to know anything at all. Blah. :)