Why is it not acceptable for grown-ups to run away from problems. I mean literally run. You always see kids who get embarassed just up and bolt down the hall, thus escaping an awkward situation. Now picture your father doing the same thing. Doesn't quite look right does it? Well at any rate, I guess people see it as a sign of weakness that is acceptable for children. Sometimes I wish I could just run away. Run fast like the wind and not look behind me for anything. Sometimes I wish I were a kid again. Sometimes I wish I could love again. Sometimes I wish I were never born. Sometimes I wish it would rain all day. Sometimes I wish my smile didn't have to go away. AH.

So what is the deal with guys that wear stocking caps in the summer? I saw a seemingly homeless man wearing a stocking cap, and it must be 80 degrees out. My theory is that the homeless don't really the time or utilities to use a mirror and comb their hair, so they just are seen insistently wearing hats.

Today for no reason what so ever, I had a really great day. For the first time in months I feel motivated to go and do thousands of things, like write in my Blog!!!

Well I went to Chicago and this gave me the opportunity to really look into the dating thing. I really do want to date, its just I never meet enough people to want to date. I sort am talking to someone that might be good for a makeout session at least, but I can't be stupid when the signs show up.

Abbey didn't call me on Sun like i was hoping.

Gin sent me an email inviting me to her house this weekend for a party, now why the crap couldn't she call or email me before that, it really makes me not want to go.

AHHHHHH. Girls of the world need to pine after me, this is bullshit.

Ah the infamous blog returns. It has been brought to my attention that this is not only a shameless plug for my troubled love life, but that it is also a warning sign of sorts that I am depressed. I guess that may hold true considering some of the reasons I come here to write. It seems recently that I have I think fully realized that both Abbey and Gin want nothing to do with me on a romantic level, yet I have a hunch that this will not stop my pining away for their love. Man am I lame or what? Girls, call me. hehe. On the roommate front, I am becoming increasingly annoyed at marty, well myself really. He is getting into the habit of pointing out everytime I am wrong about sonething, which it seems is alot. Now i can't tell whether I am growing more dumb by the day or if I am just falling into the routine of saying dumb things so Marty can jump all over my case about it. Sigh. I am probably going to move in with him in Aug. I live with him already for those of you keeping score at home, but it is a big house and I dont live exclusively with him. I guess it will be ok, as long as he stops peeing on the toilet seat and he cleans up, which I doubt will happen. I wish I could afford a place of my own and get a sweet job, but that is asking for too much. Damn this cruel cruel world. I would give it all away to be with Abbey, but only as long as she reciprocated my love for her. Cheers.