I just came back from Suzanne's going away Party. She is moving to London to teach for at least 3 yrs. It is lovely for her. After sitting there with my friends from high school ( Basically Suzanne and Jen and Gin) I got the distinct impression that I am not cool. I am not saying that they are cool or anything, but I just feel lame. This could have been directly related that I saw Gin again after some time and she as always looked smokin hot. Why does she invade my soul??? I want to meet someone new and now so I don't have to get depressed everytime Gi nand I happen to be around each other. I am still bitter though on how she can just turn off our realtionship like it doesnt exist and go about life. EGH. Whatev. Fuck it, but it did get to me just so you know. And another thing? Why doesnt anyone read this, I really am super uber uncool. adding adjectives to words is defintately not cool. Ah such is life.


Ian

Nobody Knows. Today Marty and I put down the deposit for a new apartment in Overland Park. It looks as though we are going to be living in Kansas for at least one more year. It kinda feels like I am going backwards and I hope to God Almighty that I can afford the extra $75 odd dollars a month that this transition will set me back, probably more like $100. I really think that this is going to really define how I am going to spend the rest of my life, will I stay here in the KC area or am I truely destined for greater things? We will see....