well I think that Abbey is out of the picture romantically. She never did quite show as much interest as I would have hoped, but that is my life. She blew me off today. I had a feeling she would, but I suppose it is better this way. I guess I am not ready for a girlfriend right now. School starts tommorow and this will prove interesting. I will once again become a shy and timid student like I was before. now that all my housemates are home I really have noone that reads this and I am sure I will slink into a life that noone notices. Does that sound suicidal? well it's not. I am just sad about a lot of things. girls, money, future...man what am I going to do????