I may be doomed to a life of solitude, but for the record, I can not help under any circumstances but to be attracted to Abbey. She is so unbelievably sexy. I crave even a subtle touch. To some and probably to Abbey just hearing this would sound super preverted, but it isn't. I can't help the fact that she has a smokin' body and that I am totally attracted to her. Plus it isn't like she is all body and no brains, she is a total package. I dig her so much, but alas I am cursed and must keep these feelings to myself. If I tell her other wise she might pull away and never speak to me again. Tonight we lay on the couch and I rested my hand on her shoulder. A rush flooded my body. This girl was laying in her living room in a mere T-shirt and Jeans, nothing to terribly exciting, but just the idea that she wasn't wearinga bra...her skin was smooth and silky under her shirt, and as my hand moved across her I could only imagine what it must be like to explore that further. I know that may seem dirty, but she is unbelievable. I played with her hair for awhile and then reality set in and I reminded myself that she wants nothing to do with me romantically and I showed myself out. This coming on the heels of a wonderful rejection by Beth the night before, ah life is so not good :) hope your's is better.