Well today i came to the realization that nothing is going the way I planned. I am still a child in various ways. I need to get new car insurance seeing as how I don't currently have any. I am afraid to take the plunge in my personal life as well as porfessional. I need to get to the point where I am willing to sacrifice things that I hold dear to improve my standard of living. I would like to have more money coming in so I can release some of the stress I have associated with money. I need a better job. I need to tell Abbey I think the world of her, and whether she believes me or not I want to BE with her. I am such a wuss. I literally have nothing to lose with her, if I creep her out and she never wants to talk to me again, well that is about the way it is now, she never calls me anyways. This can be attributed to the 50's idea that the man should call or it could be that she is just not interested in me that way. I wish she was aggressive and could tell me one way or another. :( Where am I going?????