I feel so much pressure today about where my life is going. I was reading this article about feral surfers in some remote island that went there to get away from life and surf all day long. This seems more and more like the life for me. I don't see myself having a career right now and I know that is probably normal, I just have really high expectations for myself and no drive. For awhile I thought Abbey shared in my desire to move away, but more and more I see that she would never do it. She is locked into a life that more or less doesn't include a romantic involvement. I think every girl i meet after her i will be compromising because I found her so great. If anyone is in utter anticipation, I did not talk to Bonnie, someone died, surprise suprise.