I talked to Bonnie on the net last night and I reinforced the idea that I will not subject myself to competing for a girls attention. If Abbey doesn't want to spend time with me, then I am not going to make her. Of course if we were together and there was another guy I would no doubt say something, but considering that I told her how I felt and was met with an oh so casual response of "let's leave things the way they are" I am holding firm to my ideal. It is done. I will no longer ask her to do anything in advance unless I feel very comfortable that she is ready and willing. I hope I can not think about it any further with the kind of anguish that I have felt this week.