So I was thinking about something......


Ha. You really think I was going to tell you? Never. You know how people have dreams, wishes, desires? Well I do, but I don't put much stock in that. I am generally aware that most people probably find my blog depressing and lonely, which I guess I am going for. Self-Deprecation is something that has always kept me sane. Music helps too. I just watched the office series 2. It is quite a sad look at work and relationships in general. I can relate, even if they are british.

I want the bumpy road. I want love. I wish someone would come around to help me take the first step, because obviously my dumb ass can't do it. self-deprecation. It moves me. It consumes me. I hate it. I am starting to sound suicidal, that is silly. I have seen that up close and it scares me to no end. I would rather be sick and unhappy than be dead and nothing. Though I would rather be happy and content, I am just so tired of hoping or looking for it.

What a scary post....sigh. This is another Saturday night at home, it does things.